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Back and ForthIt's all the same every dayBack and Forth by kanajedi
You always have a lot to say
First you're angry, screaming loud
Then you're acting as if you're proud
First you say I screwed things up
Then you're giving me a free soda cup
You tell me I do nothing when I really tried
You ignore that you're killing me inside
Then you laugh and share the fun
As if a new day has begun
But it's not ok
It doesn't go away
You still make me feel like utter shit
Then a second later, forget about it
I do so much to please you
But all of my plans just fall through
You claim you show all the signs
You ignore everything the same of mine
When I wanna die you call me a liar
You make my pain go even higher
Ten seconds later you want to laugh
But it's not better. Not by half.
You're Like a SongbirdYou were a hatchling, small and shyYou're Like a Songbird by kanajedi
Curious and always asking "Why?"
You tested your wings, you learned to fly
But you were afraid to go too high
Soon you had some words to say
You found those wings and flew away
I knew it would come, this mournful day
But those words, your words, will not decay
Keep Pushing RepeatShe takes another sip of the bitter fixation.Keep Pushing Repeat by kanajedi
"I'm dying. Every day I'm dying. Every day I'm further gone."
It's not enough. It's too weak.
Any more bitter and she'd be sick.
But it's still not enough.
"I'm a living zombie, walking every day like it's meaningless."
Nothing short of drastic will help.
Nothing short of stupid will do anything.
"How can you live each day like your last when there's nothing left to live for?"
But day by day it goes on and on.
Like the un-playable warped record, it pitches the needle back to the beginning.
"Just Like Starting Over" starts over again and doesn't get very far
Again and again the intro plays
That's how she lives
The same thing over and over
The same tears
The same zombie-like state
The same bitter fixation, but one day it truly won't be enough to numb.
So AloneSometimes I feel like I'm justSo Alone by kanajedi
Even though everyone is here
Even though they say they care
They don't all care
If they did, they'd have helped
Unfortunately they're the powerful
My problems don't exist
While they claim I lie
They claim it's all a sham
A plot to make them SUFFER
But they're making me suffer
I don't exist
I'm only allowed to be
I know what I like, and I work with what inspires me. Whether it's a hat, an apple, my favorite music, or taking a look at a fandom.
Current Residence: United States
Favourite genre of music: Rock/ Classic Rock / Alternative
Favourite style of art: Digital
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: iPod Nano 3rd Gen
Favourite cartoon character: Mordecai the Bluejay
Personal Quote: "It's not that I don't know how to take care of myself. I just don't feel it's worth it."